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Menitiskan Ukhwah Yang Sejati

Bersyukurku Ke Hadrat Ilahi Di Atas Jalinan Yang Suci

Namun Kini Perpisahan Yang Terjadi

Dugaan Yang Menimpa Diri

Bersabarlah Di Atas Suratan

Ku Tetap Pergi Jua

Kan Ku Utuskan Salam Ingatanku

Dalam Doa Kudusku Sepanjang Waktu

Ya Allah Bantulah Hamba Mu

Mencari Hidayah Daripada Mu

Dalam Mendidikkan Kesabaranku

Ya Allah Tabahkan Hati Hamba Mu

Di Atas Perpisahan Ini

"Teman Betapa Pilunya Hati Menghadapi Perpisahan Ini.

Pahit Manis Perjuangan Telah Kita Rasa Bersama. Semoga

Allah Meredhai Persahabatan Dan Perpisahan Ini. Teruskan

Perjuangan"

Kan Ku Utuskan Salam Ingatanku

Dalam Doa Kudusku Sepanjang Waktu

Ya Allah Bantulah HambaMu

Senyuman Yang Tersirat Di Bibirmu

Menjadi Ingatan Setiap Waktu

Tanda Kemesraan Bersimpul Padu

Kenangku Di Dalam Doamu

Semoga Tuhan Berkatimu

Assalamualaikum wbt,

kawan-kawan sebilik mula meninggalkan bilik ni. Mula meninggalkan Nilai. juju rasa sedih. kerana lepas ni, tak tahu akan jumpa lagi atau tak. dan juju sangat tak suka perpisahan. tapi kadang-kadang perpisahan adalah yang terbaik buat kita. macam sekarang ni. berpisah dari family. kadang-kadang jugak kita yang kena berundur. kita yang kena mengalah. juju belum bersedia nak balik rumah sebenarnya. dengan bangganya juju mengisytiharkan hari ni, sebagai "hari tak nak jawab phone calls sedunia". kenapa? sebab tadi called ma, tapi tak berjawab. beberapa kali je mencuba. no biggy. n heart feeling tooo. sibuk kot.

hari ni mungkin hari terakhir update blog. kat umah takde tenet-tenet. macam mana nak update blog? hahahaha. tengok lah nanti. bila ada kemudahan, baru boleh update balik. dan kalau panjang umur jugak. juju tak tahu apa yang Allah rancangkan untuk juju pasni. plan bolehlah.

teman,

injak kakiku terasa longlai diudara,

tiada rasa sayu,

tiada rasa pilu,

andai aku tiada,

abadikan memori kita bersama,

pahatkan tanda kuburku,
dengan kasih sayang kalian,

seharum mawar putih,

dan haruman kasturi.

kepada semua rakan-rakan, sahabat-sahabat, dan teman-teman yang juju kasihi sekalian. maafkan kesalahan juju dari hujung rambut sampai hujung kaki. halalkan apa yang juju termakan, terminum, dan terambil. last but not least from juju@miss strawberry,

andai hidup itu punca perpisahan,

biarlah mati menyambungnya semula,

tapi seandainya mati itu punca perpisahan,

biarlah hidup membawa erti yang nyata.

am i noRmal???

Assalamualaikum wbt,
dear blog,
juju rasa nak termuntah dah membaca. plus, i'm having my hard time. COLD. FLU. rasa macam-macam sekarang ni. dan sedih sikit hari ni. sebab ju called sume orang tapi takde orang nak jawab. hadoooooiiii. agaknya hari ni "hari tak nak jawab phone calls sedunia" tak???? papelah. takde mood dah nak membaca. esok jugak ada last oral communication presentation. hope everything is going to be fine tomorrow.

blog,
the truth is, i'm feeling like crying tonight. don't know why. mungkin ada overflowing emotion kat dalam diri nieyh. normal kot. seyesli** feeling like nak muntah. and menangis. juju rindu kak yam. rindu betul-betul ni. apa khabar dia eh? yang juju tahu dia dah kahwin, ada 3 orang anak. agak-agaknya, kak yam ingat juju lagi tak? kalau kak yam lupa juju, memang lah juju lari dari malaysia nieyh. *sigh* best nya kalau dapat pergi pantai.....(tak tahu apa kaitannya dengan isu kak yam)

blog.........
juju dah tak betul. all are mixing up actually. i'm giving up, i lost my hope. i lost my mood. i need to spill. i need to cry. i need to...... i need someone........ paling penting, i need an aspirin. sleeping pills ke? sume nak exam. sibuk membaca. juju tak. hari ni the whole day i slept. heavennya. apa fungsi blog sebenarnya eh? sebab juju rasa blog juju nieyh takde benefit langsung kat manusia sejagat di alam raya nieyh....
dah ada beberapa post baru nak tanya. hailoh~hailoh.... apa kata kalau juju cancel jer blog nieyh. tulis diari je lagi bagus kot. tak yah pakai internet. tak memudaratkan manusia. urmmmm.... rasanya baik juju tido dari dok membebel yang ntahpaper nieyh. jejel sibuk bertakbir hari raya, sebabnya otak dia dah sangat tepu dengan pembacaan sociology.selain tu, dia nyanyi and ajak juju nyanyi sama.besok exam kul 9. seyesli** kena tido. nunyte. bubbye.
Assalamualaikum wbt.


p/s: jangan pakai perkataan yang ada tanda ni (**) dalam exam. nanti kena potong markah.

it's alWays too Late....*sigh*

Assalamualaikum wbt.
dearest blog.
i've asked for my sister's forgiveness, but it seems like she doesn't want to forgive me. and for a few days i keep on thinking about this. life is more complicated once we've grown up. rasa malu sket + terhina bila dia tak nak maafkan. tapi takpe lah, juju dah mintak maaf dengan dia. memang hak dia pun nak maafkan ke tak. rasa sedih jugak sket, sebab selagi dia tak maafkan, juju dengan pertanggungjawaban Allah tak kan lepas. i wish i shouldn't have done anything that can hurt people around me. if i keep on hurting people's heart, then what's gonna happen next?
i'll end up by hidup sorang-sorang ke? sebenarnya juju tunggu je ma call juju, tapi nampaknya dia tak call. hurm, ma dengan abah sibuk kot. .. takpelah, nanti bila senang-senang, juju jelah call dorang nanti.

drop that subject. 27/9/2009 hari tu, juju keluar dengan kawan-kawan. pegi Time Square. seronok. dorang lagi la. masuk cosmo world. juju sampai je kat cosmo world tu, terus rasa nak termuntah. hahahahaha. gayat denagn penakut punya pasal. last-lastnya pusing-pusing je kat situ. in the end, bila dah sampai hostel, rasa lenguh kaki pulak.... buerk, padan muka. ermmmm, besok ada exam. CCT. dah baca sket-sket. malas nak fikir banyak-banyak. nanti pressure. apa pun, yakin dengan diri la. sem ni ntah pape je. rasa empty. tak enjoy macam last sem pun. last sem boleh la jugak nak target pape. sem ni langsung, hampeh....(frust dengan diri sendiri.) adoyai, juju. chillex......

malam tadi, semua orang asyik tersalah cakap je. hihihihihihihihi. agaknya, semalam "hari tersalah cakap sedunia kot". juju dah lupa sape yang cakap, tapi yang pentingnya dia nak cakap adoi, sekali tercakap hadoooiiiiii. hikhikhik. apalagi, satu bilik gelak memanjang. nak cakap meletakkan, tercakap melotakkan. hah, terkeluar loghat negeri sembilan tuh. menghilangkan segala rasa yang tense bila nak exam. rasa sayang la pulak nak tinggalkan nilai. rasa takut nak masuk gombak. sebab bila kita makin dewasa, hidup makin menakutkan. semua orang bawak haluan sendiri.

okay, apa yang penting, kalau kita sayang orang, bagitahu cepat-cepat. hargai dorang. jangan sia-siakan kehadiran dorang. sebab, dorang kan sebahagian dari hidup kita.
bubbye semua.(gaya ramai je followers)

haPpy heArt...!!!

Assalamualaikum wbt,

dearest my dear blog,
i'm very happy today. i'm done with my computer 1 test and it feels great. why am i happy??? because i can feel the loves all around me today. the "good luck" and "all the best" wishes from my roommates, and someone special today make my day. he called for a few times, and i'm really appreciate it. a lot of thanks dear,.
hurm, it feels great when someone asked you about your exam. "how was it?", "was it hard? did you manage to handle it?", or even console you when you said that it was so hard that you almost burst into tears, like " it's okay dear. you've done your best. it's okay. whatever it is, you're the best..". when he said something like that to me, i burst into tears of joy. he called in the morning (6:42 AM), and called again right before my exam, and right after my exam... called in the evening and at late at night just to wish me a proper good night. i like the way he cares for me. (today is the world's missing our loved ones day xD xoxoxoxoxo)


during washing my clothes today, i keep on thinking about my things with my kak yana. i think it's about time for me to stop all these nonsense things, settle down and going on with my life. and according to my mum, the only way to settle down is by saying a lot of sorry to kak yana. surrender in other word. i keep on thinking about it. i never hated her. she's my sister. we shared the same blood of our parents. apart that, our birth dates are next to each other (12/11 & 13/11) i wanna be closed to her, just like how closed our birth dates are. still, i'm hesitated to do so( saying a lot of sorry) i still can't get rid of the egoism out of me*sigh* will she forgive me if i ask for her forgiveness???. maybe it's true that she has something inside her that makes people love her more. and i don't have it. it's not her fault then. maybe it's my fault for being so sensitive???? for being immature in judging a thing, and for not being a good critical and creative thinker????? i have a lot of questions in my mind, but i don't have the answers...


right now i'm hoping to change the way the world goes round, to turn the time back to the happy past time, and fly to Venus, because they said that TIMES are hundred times slower there, than the TIMES in Earth... is it true??? i'll lock the time during my happiest time, during my beloveds' happiest time and most of all, during our happiest time together. i do know that it's not wrong to sacrifice our importance, our needs, our feelings, and our things just to make others (our beloveds mostly) happy.

last word,
to abah, ma, all family members, friends, and not to forget xXcaerXx, i love all of you. with every single pieces of my heart. please forgive me for all my wrongdoings. maybe i don't know how to show my love, but trust me, my love for all of you remains unchanged. even if the sun rises from the West... there'll come a time where i'll say my love to you out loud, right in front of your faces...

thanks for accepting me in your lives...

wHat heArt alwAys waNts tO sAy????

Assalamualaikum w.b.t,

dear my dearest blog,

hari raya gave me a lot of new things to be thought about. either i'm the reason why these things happen, or others cause its yet i'm the one who suffer from its.

juju rasa bersalah dengan abah dan ma sebab juju berdegil. entahlah, selalunya senang nak mengalah, tapi bila dengan akak, juju tak dapat nak mengalah. degil je. *sigh*. supposedly, when the whole family expecting me to say sorry to her just to make them happy, juju patut ikut je.

kadang-kadang hati tak boleh nak overlook semuanya. dan juju lemah bab nak mengawal hati ni... adoyaiiii, apa citer yang sebenarnya????

selepas beberapa tahun tak balik beraya dengan kami, akhirnya akak juju yang ketiga, juliana shazwani balik sebab nak sambut raya dengan kami. semua happy, terutamanya abah dengan ma. yelah, kan anak dorang. dah lama pulak tu tak balik. mula-mulanya, semua okey (lega juju time tuh...). tapi, bila isu berbangkit, juju lah yang disalahkan. dialog yang sama uttered by both of my parents," kakak kena mengalah, kalau tak nanti kak yana serik nak balik ke rumah". dan setiap kali juju dengar dialog tu, juju di timpa kecelakaan hati yang membuatkan juju down to earth (bukan humble, okey???)

hurm, juju bukan tak suka kak yana balik.... tapi bila dia balik, orang akan selalu membandingkan kami. to be honest, i really don't like it when people keep on comparing both of us. bila dia balik jugak, semua akan mula melupakan juju. yes, that's the fact and truth bites...(ouchhh...=( ). juju sedar yang perbuatan tu adalah amat, amat, dan amatlah mementingkan diri. tapi, juju dah terbiasa macam tu. dulu masa kak yam yang jaga juju, dia sangat amatlah memanjakan juju. memanjakan tu maksudnya, she gave me the assurance that she loves me. juju terbiasa diberikan perhatian. dan bila dah terbiasa macam tu, in the end, it hurts me...

dulu, masa kecik-kecik, juju ingat kak yana tu sepupu juju. tapi, juju pelik sebab dia ada rantai yang sama macam juju dan kak long. dan juju ingat juju anak ketiga dari 5 beradik. tiba-tiba juju tahu yang dia kakak juju. apa yang juju fikir? 6 tahun dengan seorang kak long, abang ngah, dan dua adik lelaki, muncul pulak kakak lagi sorang. sejak dari tu, juju jadik sensitif. kak yam dah balik kampung, dah tak jaga juju. abah dengan ma pulak, entahlah... kebanyakan masanya juju sorang-sorang. juju anggap yang kak yana rampas apa yang juju ada time tuh *Astaghfirullah hal adzim* keadaan ni tak adil bagi semua orang, juju tahu tu. (mental juju sakit ke????) but i really don't know how to get rid of this. someone, pleeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaasssssssssseeeeeeeeee HELP me.... juju tak suka macam ni. juju tersepit, antara apa yang abah dan ma nak dari juju, dan apa yang hati juju nak. juju paling tak suka kena marah. bila kena marah, rasa hina, rasa di benci. kak yana pernah jadi penyebab juju kena marah dengan abah tanpa usul periksa. dan juju sangat tak suka. kena marah depan orang. juju rasa rendah.... sangat rendah....

when i am sad, i tend to hurt myself just to get rid of those sadness and pain that i felt deep down inside of my heart. mungkin kalau juju takde, everything will be okay... rite?

i need someone who can always listen,

i need someone who cares,

convinced me that he will keep my days brighten,

and always there.

i want someone who can understand,

i want someone that can defend,

give me love as much as i want,

from beginning till the end...

apa pun yang jadi lepas ni, juju terima je. andai kata itu yang boleh buatkan orang di sekeliling juju happy, why not then... rite????? walaupun dorang nak juju vanish, itu pun juju akan tunaikan. because love is everything. in the end, everything will be okay. if it's not okay, it's not the end then.... hurm, wondering about my ending.... will i ending up by living all alone by myself in an unknown place, far from my loved ones or i'll live like everybody else???????

juju's first play experience...

ANASTASIA~AT THE BEGINNING

We were strangers

Starting out on a journey

Never dreaming what we'd have to go through

Now here we are and I'm suddenly standing

At the beginning with you

No one told me, that I was going to find you

Unexpected, what you did to my heart

When I lost hope you were there to remind me

This is the start

[Chorus:]

And life is a road I wanna keep going

Love is a river I want to keep flowing

Life is road now and forever

Wonderful journey

I'll be there when the world stops turning

I'll be there when the storm is through

In the end I wanna be standing

At the beginning with you

We were strangers on a crazy adventure

Never dreaming that dreams would come true

Now here we stand unafraid of the future

At the beginning with you

[Chorus:]

And life is a road I wanna keep going

Love is a river I want to keep flowing

Life is road now and forever

Wonderful journey

I'll be there when the world stops turning

I'll be there when the storm is through

In the end I wanna be standing

At the beginning with you

I knew there was somebody somewhere

Like me alone in the dark

Now I know that my dream will live on

I've been waiting so long

Nothing's gonna tear us apart

[Chorus:]

And life is a road I wanna keep going

Love is a river I want to keep flowing

Life is road now and forever

Wonderful journey

I'll be there when the world stops turning

I'll be there when the storm is through

In the end I wanna be standing

At the beginning with you

Life is a road and I wanna keep going

Love is a river I want to keep going on

Starting out on a journey

Life is a road and I want to keep going

Love is a river I want to keep flowing

In the end I want to be standing

At the beginning with you

Assalamualaikum w.b.t,

Alhamdulillah that my drama inter-class competition had been successfully performed. despite of all the tiredness, we are so glad that it's finally over. everybody worked so hard for it. here, i've inserted a few of the pictures that i snapped during the performed day. (pssssttt, i like the moon very much...)

something's wrong with blog's image uploader. wanna see more? visit my friendster/myspace/facebook profile. i've uploaded most of the image there... (julaiha90@yahoo.com)

i've put the AT THE BEGINNING song's lyric. i like that song very much. during our rehearsal time, during we're doing our task, i've been listen to this song. this song is about an inspiration of one person who kept him going through during the darkest days of his life. i'm hoping that there will be a person who wants to be with me for the rest of my life, grow old with me... person who cares, person who loves, never less but always more and more each days...

x larat

Assalamualaikum.

hari juju tak sihat, mungkin sebab yang mandi hujan tuh. and sekarang juju tengah siapkan assignment drama yang nak kena hantar time class drama nanti. juju langsung lupa yang juju ada assignment nak kena hantar kul 3 ptg on september 3rd.... hailo~hailo, juju dah jadi pelupa. sekarang tgh pening. gaya orang tak betul dah nih. tolonggg,....

~unsangkarable~

Assalamualaikum dear blog.


hari ni juju tak tahu apa mood juju. tapi juju suka sangat dengan suasana dan cuaca hari ni... hmm, tadi hujan. dingin je hari ni. juju ada kelas kul 8.30 pagi, tu pun terlambat pergi. hahhaha. kelas Madam Adibah pulak tuh. isk3. Nazihah punyalah risau sampai dia texted me for a few times. tak kira calls lagi tuh. habis kelas grammar kul 11 pagi, juju nak balik hostel. but it's raining heavily at that moment. payung takde, apa lagi.... juju ambil kesempatan mandi hujan ar. juju redah je hujan tuh. seronok tapi menyesal sikit, sebab sekarang dah sakit kepala. kalau besok cuti takpe lah jugak. adoyaiii juju... jangan selesema sudah...


hari jumaat nanti juju bakal mendemonstrasi bagaimana nak buat origami burung. agak susah nak explain dalam english... ah, redah je lah. that is my last speech ever. thanks Allah, for giving me the strength to go through all the presentations. Alhamdulillah, but still, besok ada kuiz computer 1. and for the last presentation creative and critical thinking skills, we have to come out with a new bussiness idea which our target is CFS IIUM STUDENTS campus NILAI...


nak jual apa yer?????? any ideas?????


by the way, tadi juju nampak pelangi. tapi tak clear sangat pun. still, itu adalah pelangi, and it makes my day. of course, someone special's phone call pun makes my day jugak... ;-) sape tak suka pelangi yea???? pelangi, baby, buih, belon, lollipop, strawberry, ice cream, cartoon, cake...

juju sangat suka pelangi. last year paling best la. sebabnya ada pelangi masa juju nak celebrate my 18th birthday. apalagi, juju try ar tangkap gambar dengan berlatarbelakangkan pelangi tu. seronok, happy, excited. juju suka sangat... eh, nanti juju tulis lagi. no worry, kadang-kadang kalau juju free, sampai dua kali sehari juju update, ok blog? jangan sedih=sedih tau. be happy, no worries. tapi juju dah taak nak tidur lambat sangat. penat jadinya badan juju ni.... bubbye.

Assalamualaikum...

Drama....

Assalamualaikum w.b.t,
juju penat nieyh. dah start dah practice drama untuk inter-class drama presentation. kerja juju sebagai assistant director tak lah penat sangat sebab semua pun ada idea creative on how to make our drama presentation be well-liked, terutamanya oleh judges kami that are Miss Hanita and Sir Chali himself. but, there's a rumour saying that Miss Hanita will invite a few of her friends from her theatre club to watch our play. can't wait to see the results. hahahaha....

tapi sebagai person in charge for the setting of the play (P.I.C.) dengan nora, nazihah and auni, kerja kami sangat banyak. apatah lagi, setting memainkan peranan penting dalam sesebuah play. tambahan lagi, auni membawakan watak utama digandingkan dengan wasi. nazihah pun menceburkan diri dalam play ni sebagai assistant documentor. nasib la juju tak diberi apa-apa watak. cukuplah dekat McLead. tapi, seronok jugak.... hurmmm, missing the old times there. hihihi. sweet.

tapi juju sangat suka kalau diberi peluang untuk jadi pengacara. Insya Allah, juju akan minor dalam Massa Communication. dah tanya bonda Azah, (cikgu sejarah spm merangkap mak angkat) dia cakap ambil mass com sangat best. but be prepared with the tasks, and challenges la. kadang-kadang rasa macam hilang identiti juju nieyh. mana taknya, time sekolah dulu, diam semedang memanjang. gara-gara rela dalam paksa masuk debat, juju "terberubah menjadi lebih bising". kesian kat cikgu sebenarnya. sebab takde wakil. kalau tak sekolah kitorang kena hantar surat tarik diri. dia cakap, juju masuk sekali je. then takde dah. takde apa, dua kali kena berdebat dengan dua buah sekolah maahad. dan semenjak tu, juju dah tak diam sangat. sebabnya, semua kawan-kawan satu tingkatan, junior dan cikgu-cikgu banyak ucap tahniah,(tp first time je menang). banyak tegur kalau nampak juju kat mana-mana dalam kawasan sekolah tu. adoyaiii, naik lenguh kejap pipi senyum sebab tak biasa kena tegur dengan ramai orang. tak pernah famous la katakan. teammates juju yang lagi dua orang rileks je. dah biasa di kenali la katakan.

apa yang boleh juju katakan, dapat banyak ilmu la. ma pun pernah bising dengan "sifat kediaman" juju. "sifat kediaman" ni membawa dua maksud tau, 1. terlalu diam, gaya takde mulut or berat mulut nak bercakap dengan orang. 2. suka berkurung kat rumah. bak kata ma, nak jadi macam tok wali yang dok bertapa kat gua tu ke??????

takdelah nak jadi macam tu, cumanya rasa malas nak keluar. lagi suka rehat-rehat buat ibadat yang paling ikhlas (err, tidur la tuh), or tengok tv. citer cartoon ar biasanya. paling tak pun, bila ma dok bising tuh, keluar la kejap petang. kat depan rumah je. tengok adik-adik main badminton or bola. tolong jadi dorang punya cheerleader. memang sorang je kot. terpaksalah sokong dua-dua. aaaaa..... lagi satu sebab adik juju dua-dua lelaki. takde kawan yang boleh temankan juju kalau nak jalan-jalan waktu petang. dorang selalu bising kalau juju nak ikut dorang jalan-jalan. tak cool bawak kakak, kata dorang. kurang asam punya adik....=(lepas tu merajuk ar. padan muka, tak keluar terus. hahahahaha. kalau keluar pun, ikut ma pergi rumah mama( mak ngah, tapi panggil mama).

seronok la jugak. tapi most of the time kat rumah. time form 5 Spm lagi la. pergi sekolah kul 7 pagi, sampai rumah dah kul 6 petang. mana nak keluar dengan kerja rumah yang berlambak. math la yang paling banyak. 300 soalan dapat hari ni, cikgu nak keesokan harinya dah siap 200. wowwwwww.... ada kuasa ultraman pun boleh pengsan di buatnya. silap-silap termuntah keluar nombor-nombor and formula-formula math. hihihihi. juju pulak tak boleh belajar tanpa tv or radio. that's the fact. in fact, juju banyak spent masa kat depan tv time spm dulu. abah bising ar kejap. then agaknya dia dah tak kuasa nak melarang anak yang begitu degil nieyh. haiii, mewarisi siapa la gamaknya yea??????

ok lah, juju nak tido dulu. esk kelas kul 8.oo. bubbye. take care semua. jaga diri.
Assalamualaikum w.b.t.

helloooooo.... salam perkenalan.

Assalamualaikum,
hah, korang mesti terkejut kan? ni blog juju yang baru. insya Allah, kat sini juju akan post kan macam-macam. like, a very simple poem, songs' lyric, pictures and such. mana dapat nama ni? hurmm, habis dah nama yang juju nak tak dapat. dah ada orang pakai. lollipop pun best jugak, kan? blog ni baru je set up. tak complete lagi. akan di upgrade dari semasa ke semasa. ada cadangan? no hal. bagitahu je. terutama buat Hamba Allah tu, komennya sangat dialu-alukan... tapi juju mesti rindu kat blog tu jugak. blog friendster. sayang sangat. apa-apa pun, selamat bersahur dan berpuasa. juju tak dapat tidur sangat ni. tak tau kenapa... sorry Hamba Allah, janji tak nak tidur lambat, tapi sepanjang malam juju tak tidur. okeyh, bubbye. Assalamualaikum.